Thursday, May 24, 2012
Quarter-Life Crisis
Monday, April 23, 2012
The Peak (Howler sent, part 3)
Saturday, April 21, 2012
Those red, dotted lights…
Am I still up for a third time? I...
Monday, April 9, 2012
First-Timer in a Hopeless Place
Call me a loser or whatev, this is my first Puerto Galera escapade.
Shine a light through an open door
Last April 5th was an extremely long day. The stretch of it was not merely highlighted by the scorching hot sun and my dripping sweat because drama exploded and hit me straight–or nearly–to my face. It all began with the almost 6-hour delayed boat ride from Batangas Port to Puerto Galera; %&*$# you Minolo Shipping Line! Though that was already stressful, I still felt happy because of two things: 1) this is my first time to be in Galera and 2) I crush one of JV’s friends. Hihi. But in a shocking turn of events, crush transformed into a monster on that first night. Crush was drunk, too drunk to even control his fists and mouth.
I don’t want to refresh all the details since this first day and night was a complete disaster. Some tidbits: crush almost hit me in the face, I got kisses (cheeks and lips) from the other drunk person who saved me from crush’s drunk attempts, crush shouted and pinpointed me and my 3 other friends, I got stressed and slept at around 5AM, and we rented a new room which is out of my allotted budget.
Thanks crush for that wonderful Galera welcome, and yes, I crush you no more.
The only good thing I consider for this day/night was my “Overprotected” henna tattoo on my right shoulder. Too bad I forgot to take a picture of it.
It's the way I’m feeling I just can't deny
After that happiness-sucking drama that happened, I promised myself that the next days and nights would be the complete opposite.
Yellow diamonds in the light
Moving out and renting a new room was a good move for us. Though it doesn’t actually boast a “comfort” room, it was enough for me because we can finally talk and laugh our hearts out for almost every time without “bothering” other people. Well, except for our new neighbors. Ha! But yes, this second day/night was all about enjoyment and fun.
I greeted the day with a nice brunch plus a Strawberry Shake which I really loved! With my full and happy tummy, I finally enjoyed the breeze and scenery of Galera. We took a dip on the sea by late afternoon; we were inside the room during noontime though, since the sun was glaring down and it was too hot.
For the first time in my 24 years of existence, I got drunk.
DRUNK. TIPSY. DANCING, DANCING, DANCING, and DANCING. It felt like forever! I felt so much happiness, like no stress can ever penetrate my skin. It was as if I was the bravest man on Earth! One of the funniest moments I had that night was when I badly needed to pee. The public comfort room was packed with a long line so I had no choice but to take a leak by the beach. Sorry Mother Nature… So after mustering enough courage and pride, I went for it. First attempt went smoothly. The second one was hilarious! It took me a while to release what’s needed to be released because the water snatched my flip-flops! I literally went for it, while I was swaying crazily because I was too drunk. I bet the people by the beach who saw me were laughing because of my feat. Luckily after a minute or two, I recovered them and finally had the chance to do the deed.
More alcohol and laughter poured in and fueled my not-so-brave-turned-fearless body. I danced with the crowd on the dancefloor. Skin on skin, touching anything and everything. I wanted more, I wanted to explore more. So I went for it…
Darkness. Bushes. Sands. Shadows. Trees. Rocks. Whispers. Hugs. Touches. Kisses. Then I found the sixth month of the year. I did not let go. We had spark. When dawn broke, we found ourselves walking by the beach together towards our cottages. We were sweet. We bid each other and that awesome night goodbye with a kiss and a…
…in a hopeless place
I slept for a few hours and woke up around lunch time with a hangover on my head and chest, the other aches while the other exudes extreme satisfaction. I immediately checked my phone. It made me smile. For the first time since I don’t know when, two groups of muscles were smiling while I was reading that simple SMS. The third day passed by with happy thoughts and excitement for the 3rd and final night: The BIG Night.
I had a different plan. I’m happy because my friends Ed, Khel and JV were very supportive of me. To cut the story short, I decided to bail out on the party by the bar for an overnight date by the beach…
We met again that night. This time we spent it by sitting side by side by the beach front. We exchanged thoughts, talked, laughed and did the getting-to-know thing for hours under the stars. Since I borrowed our room key, we went there…
Like what we’ve decided, we’ll be going back that night on the “hopeless place” to observe. I don’t want to spill out the details because we had a few misunderstandings about this idea. Again, after the longest time, I felt jealous. That was noticed. At around 4AM, we found ourselves walking together again towards the cottages. This time it was different, I was dead silent. I felt pain.
A few exchanges of one-liner Q&A’s were dropped and then we sat by the beach. I expressed my thoughts. I said sorry and it was accepted. We hugged. We were sweet. It was as if we were already together. Everything went well, then we bid our goodbyes for that night and kissed and parted ways with a promise of seeing each other again the soonest here in Manila.
…in a hopeless place
I did not sleep immediately when I arrived in our room. I decided to take a morning walk by the beach and grab a cold bottle of mineral water…
Fate challenged me right away. First, I saw a recent ex-fling. The last time we saw each other, this ex-fling grabbed and dragged me towards the second floor comfort room at The Distillery, The Fort. A short exchange of hi’s, hello’s and how are you’s and we moved on.
I continued walking by the beach. Then I saw this not-so-recent ex-fling which took a big chunk of my heart before when our blooming relationship did not push through. Ex-fling was so drunk but recognized me right away. I sat and we talked, exchanged a few stories after our “thing” together. After a quick breakfast, I accompanied oh-so-drunk ex-fling towards their cottage. We bid our goodbyes; no hard feelings, crying and drama this time.
I went back in our room. Thought and assessed what has happened in the past 48 hours. Before I closed my eyes, I decided: I would do everything in my power—we will see each other again here in Manila soon.
Yellow diamonds in the light
Last day… Last day to enjoy and embrace Galera…
Our afternoon boat ride was again delayed but only for a few minutes. Sadly, we did not have the chance to see each other before we both left the island. I went home, feeling mixed emotions of fulfillment, sadness, enjoyment and longing.
It was nice having Edda James, Khelsy D. and Vikki D’Nolli beside me for my first Galera experience. Ava S. Pierce was born and found the sixth month of the year. What more could I ask for?
This trip was worth all the sweat, stress and money. I will never, ever forget my first Puerto Galera escapade. I’m not a loser anymore. I’ve experienced Galera to the fullest. Though I’m not yet certain when, I’m sure I will be back there again.
But for the meantime, I’m hoping I could be singing this line soon:
We found love in a hopeless place
Thursday, January 5, 2012
Numbness...
Why is it so hard for everyone to just accept things like it is? Is it really that hard to suck it all up? Is selfishness the answer to get what you really want?
Given the chance, I will improve myself. If only such things are to be achieved in a snap of a finger! I’m pretty sure to be on top!
But despite this awful numbness and stupidity that I am feeling right now, I still want change. Some changes, “some” would do. I am still in the hopes of a better feeling tomorrow and on the coming days. I know that if I maintain this spark of positivity that I have within me, I can make myself shine brighter than ever before. I will do everything to fulfill this.
This year will be mine. This year IS mine. I am claiming it now.
Accio Success.
Monday, January 2, 2012
Lumos Maxima
Two, zero, one, two.
Last year was a tough one. I got carried away with everything. Though I did try my best to cope up, I know I’m still stuck here. And so, yes, I welcome myself to this blog once again.
I can’t and won’t promise to always reflect here because I will still fight to break free.
Lumos Maxima.
Friday, September 24, 2010
Two steps backward...
I know that fate has its own course, and somehow, sometime, it will lead us to that point of no return: success. But is there such a thing as being at the right place at the wrong time when it comes to this life phenomenon?
Just a few days back, I've been rejoicing like there's no tomorrow. That gleeful feeling of triumph over winning the Quidditch Cup is so similar to what I've been experiencing inside. I knew then that I'll be waking up from a terrible nightmare in just a few days...
The dream. That dream. It's so close, yet—just a couple of hours ago—it's so far once again. To be honest, I'm still hoping for the best. God will provide what's best for me. No buts, no ifs, even if I want to. All I know now is that I'm very, very down emotionally but my spirit is still soaring like the Golden Snitch.
Fate is indeed full of surprises, a collective experience of downfalls and joys. Maybe I'm just at the wrong place at the right time? Honestly, I'm convinced that I am.
Not a loser anymore, like the last time, and the time before...
Monday, September 20, 2010
The Verdict (Howler sent...)
At last, after weeks of contemplation, anxiety and excitement, the Howler has been sent. Though there's still a few needed tweaks, at least it's already been given to the Ministress of [Dark] Magic (duh?).
Who would've thought that I would be an Auror this quick?! This is indeed a dream come true. And for that, I thank everyone who prayed for me. Finally, the path is clear: nothing's been wasted; I'm illuminated with the brightest future so far; and of course, the dreaded final step paid off.
Honestly, I can't wait for that very day. I want to start fresh. I want to embrace bliss. I want to own the dream.
Oh, I just did...
Don't stop believing...
Monday, September 6, 2010
The last step...
I dared myself and I feel good about it. I remember this feeling, it's like when we've finally learned the only way to destroy the Dark Lord; it's as if the very last Horcrux has been captured and crushed into pieces. Funny, it sounds violent but trust me, it's worth it.
The NEWTs questionnaires were a bit harder than I've expected. Though a bit shocked, I still put my best foot forward. Grace under pressure, grace even in battle.
What motivates you to become an Auror?
My mom. Since she gave her best to raise me, I want to repay her. I want to give her everything because I love her: I'm a proud Mama's Boy.
What for you is Good Muggle Service?
Good Muggle Service is meeting the deadline and presenting a flawless output. But the "Best Muggle Service" is meeting the deadline and presenting a flawless output without compromising both parties' creative thoughts—it's a win-win situation.
When was the last time you got furious and what did you do about it?
The last was when I was given wrong instructions for a job and I almost screwed it. The Muggle client was pushy, but I managed to handle the situation. Though furious, I talked to my Prefect about it calmly, and when the break time came, I just ate a big slice of cake—treacle tart—since I have a thing for sweets.
NEWTs' results will be finalized anytime within this week. I hope the Lord will still help me push through to finally conquer this.
It has been done. This is my final step.
Friday, September 3, 2010
Two steps forward...
Three hard-hitting questions, three honest answers:
I was asked, would you sacrifice galleons with career? I said YES. We all need to sacrifice at one point or another in our lives and with this bold move, I know I'm sacrificing yet again, but I'm sure it will all be worth it.
I was asked, how would you handle difficult and uncooperative Muggles? For the former I said, we can always come up with a win-win solution by meeting halfway; for the latter, good communication in the first place is always the greatest framework for a team effort. I strongly believe that everything can be achieved successfully with proper communication.
I was asked, are you ready to face this new world as an Auror? I said YES. I have been dreaming of this since I was in college, and I know I'm now ready to succeed in this field.
By next week, I will take the NEWTs. I hope the Lord will still be in favor of me.
The bright light is closer: I'm still not afraid, I'm still enthralled with its promise. This is my two steps forward...
Thursday, September 2, 2010
Journal Entry #1

Dear Journal,
Gloomy days are here once again thanks to these ever beloved DeMentors [Demented Mentors(?)] who never fails to ruin every good thing that's happening. Spare me some Felix Felicis, I think I might have to drink plenty starting now. Is this the right time to send the Howler again? If I remember it right, the last time I sent one was last year. Honestly, that idea has crossed my mind this morning; the Howler would end all this mess. But I'm giving them until... perhaps this weekend to clean this all up. As I quote one of the DeMentors: "I'm sick and tired of blah, blah, blah..."
I know everyone has their inner stupidity attached to them. Though it's a shame, some of us really don't know how to control it. So here's the thing, don't infect those who are celebrating life's positivity! We don't need pathetic and inexcusable reasons of why this should be that and those to be whatevs! Go ahead and number our heads from 1 to 5, but please don't suck all the happy things and thoughts we've been having because yes, WE deserve them. And if I say WE, I really mean WE—and that doesn't include any of you of course.
Thank goodness I am only tempted of cursing you all. But if I could, I would: one by one, I will tear you down. I will make sure that you will fear me and my presence would haunt you even in your sleep. Lucky you, I can't afford to loose my sanity and do all these...
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Conquering the dream...
Gone are the days where I can just simply sit comfortably in a corner and watch the clouds fade in and out of sight. If I am to assess myself based on where I am right now, I'd say I'm stuck; on where I've been to, I'd say it wasn't enough; and on where I plan to be 5–10 years from now, I'd say living my dream. Funny, yes, but I still dream the same dream for years. The downside was, it felt like it's been slipping away from my supposed and pretentious tight grip... and just today, I fought back—I tried to hold that string of hope once more.
My usual morning sickness-cum-routine welcomed my day, but there's something different about it: I had smirk on my lips and fire in my eyes. You ask why? For this is the day I've been dreading for years! As what they say, put your eyes on the prize; but today for me it was put your effin' 112% for this chance of reaching the dream.
Smoke, sweat, noise, travel time and heavy traffic didn't hinder me and my vested-ensemble-of-a-sharp-look to conquer Pasig City. My dream lies there, my dream is there...
And now as I start to count the days and contemplate whether my ala-beauty pageant answer was enough, I'll stay positive. No, I won't sit comfortably in a corner just to watch clouds fade in and out once more but I'll happily and wholeheartedly thank the Lord for this opportunity and ask His humble guidance.
So did I waste another chance? I don't think so.
Thursday, August 26, 2010
SPOTTED [2]
History repeating itself, again and again.
Is it just me, or is Lonely Boy being punished by the Almighty?
A different hunger struck him late this lunch, and I heard he struggled to keep his appetite.
Oh c'mon, who could even resist that—I admit I couldn't and WOULDN'T either.
To taste it again? Hell Y-E-S.
Just learn to play your cards well Lonely Boy...
And don't forget to wash your hands after, germs are everywhere.
xoxo
GossipGuy
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
SPOTTED [1]
Lonely Boy chasing after a big(?) dream.
Is it true he got lost, as in literally?
I heard there was a loud surprise, and a flashback.
Looks like this has been a very tiring but not a rewarding day for him at all.
Careful Lonely Boy, don't bite more than you could chew—suck it up.
Remember: Never ever, ever loose hope.
xoxo
GossipGuy
Sunday, August 22, 2010
I solemnly swear that I'm up to no good

They say you can never put a good man down. Well they’re right: I’m not good enough, so no one will ever bother to put me down. Except of course for those who are indeed envious of who I am and what I am. But let me clear just one thing, I’m not here again to simply conform with your so-called norms; I’m back because I want to, I’m back because I need to.
From this day forward, expect nothing but… just figure that out.
Sunday, November 1, 2009
Britney Spears - 3 - Official Music Video - HD
Indulge into Queen B's latest music video for 3!
Raunchy eh?
Sweet!!!
3
Britney Spears
1, 2, 3
Not only you and me
Got one eighty degrees
And I'm caught in between
Countin'
1, 2, 3
Peter, Paul & Mary
Gettin' down with 3P
Everybody loves ***
Countin'
Babe, pick a night
To come out and play
If it's alright
What do you say?
Merrier the more
Triple fun that way
Twister on the floor
What do you say?
Are - you in
Livin' in sin is the new thing (yeah)
Are - you in
I am countin'!
1, 2, 3
Not only you and me
Got one eighty degrees
And I'm caught in between
Countin'
1, 2, 3
Peter, Paul & Mary
Gettin' down with 3P
Everybody loves ***
Countin'
Three is a charm
Two is not the same
I don't see the harm
So are you game?
Lets' make a team
Make 'em say my name
Lovin' the extreme
Now are you game?
Are - you in
Livin' in sin is the new thing
Are - you in
I am countin'!
1, 2, 3
Not only you and me
Got one eighty degrees
And I'm caught in between
Countin'
1, 2, 3
Peter, Paul & Mary
Gettin' down with 3P
1, 2, 3
Not only you and me
Got one eighty degrees
And I'm caught in between
Countin'
1, 2, 3
Peter, Paul & Mary
Gettin' down with 3P
Everybody loves ***
Countin'
Babe, pick a night
To come out and play
If it's alright
What do you say?
Merrier the more
Triple fun that way
Twister on the floor
What do you say?
Are - you in
Livin' in sin is the new thing (yeah)
Are - you in
I am countin'!
1, 2, 3
Not only you and me
Got one eighty degrees
And I'm caught in between
Countin'
1, 2, 3
Peter, Paul & Mary
Gettin' down with 3P
Everybody loves ***
Countin'
Three is a charm
Two is not the same
I don't see the harm
So are you game?
Lets' make a team
Make 'em say my name
Lovin' the extreme
Now are you game?
Are - you in
Livin' in sin is the new thing
Are - you in
I am countin'!
1, 2, 3
Not only you and me
Got one eighty degrees
And I'm caught in between
Countin'
1, 2, 3
Peter, Paul & Mary
Gettin' down with 3P
Everybody loves ***
What we do is innocent
Just for fun and nothin' meant
If you don't like the company
Let's just do it you and me
You and me...
Or three....
Or four....
- On the floor!
Everybody loves ***
What we do is innocent
Just for fun and nothin' meant
If you don't like the company
Let's just do it you and me
You and me...
Or three....
Or four....
- On the floor!
Friday, October 30, 2009
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Britney Spears - 3 (OFFICIAL NEW SINGLE)
Britney Spears
<Chorus>
1, 2, 3
Not only you and me
Got one eighty degrees
And I'm caught in between
Countin'
1, 2, 3
Peter, Paul & Mary
Gettin' down with 3P
Everybody loves ***
Countin'
Babe, pick a night
To come out and play
If it's alright
What do you say?
Merrier the more
Triple fun that way
Twister on the floor
What do you say?
Are - you in
Livin' in sin is the new thing (yeah)
Are - you in
I am countin'!
Repeat Chorus
Three is a charm
Two is not the same
I don't see the harm
So are you game?
Lets' make a team
Make 'em say my name
Lovin' the extreme
Now are you game?
Are - you in
Livin' in sin is the new thing
Are - you in
I am countin'!
Repeat Chorus
What we do is innocent
Just for fun and nothin' meant
If you don't like the company
Let's just do it you and me
You and me...
Or three....
Or four....
- On the floor!
Repeat Chorus 2x




