Friday, September 5, 2008

I choose you. Do I have a choice?


choose - [verb] 1) to select from a number of possibilities; pick by preference. 2) to prefer or decide (to do something). 3) to want; desire.

choice - [noun] 1) an act or instance of choosing; selection. 2) the right, power, or opportunity to choose; option. 3) an alternative.


Choosing the right choice. If my memory serves me right, the last time I did this was like - last year? Yes. The last time I checked, I was able to have finally what I deserved. Though the happy part of choosing has come to an end months ago, the longing process lingers more and more - deeper and deeper.

Rejection has befriended me a lot of times. If I was to be an option, I would always end up being the loser. It hurts, it pierces through my marrows. But what should I do? Be like them? Hell no, I am no player.

I miss having a choice. I miss exercising my right to choose. But above all, I miss the feeling of being someone's only choice - I miss being chosen.

10 comments:

Ed Montalban said...

hell I miss that too. you're too good to be an option that i know you know...

'Varian Mazo The Ringleader' said...

Aww..
Thanks..
Bothered lng..
Kaya emo na naman blog..
Hays..

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Camille Merza.ü said...

aww.. :(

'Varian Mazo The Ringleader' said...

Don't be sad..

\m/

chea badu said...

it's harder when you think you're chosen and somehow it shows pero anlabo, parang di totoo.
learn how to be a player. it's fun too. but sad somehow.

'Varian Mazo The Ringleader' said...

It's really hard - the pain sears slowly like hell..
I actually planned on becoming one, but I still am hesitant..
Parang di ko kaya maglaro ng iba..
Martyr no?
Hays..

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Miko Legaspi said...

being chosen is really an ego-boost...
sometimes, kahit hindi mo gusto yung pumili sau,
you get a kind of pride na ikaw ang pinili.

not being chosen is quite troubling...
but after a while, you learn,
its quite relaxing.

and you'll learn to say
buti na lang,
hindi ako napunta sa kanya.

ZephyR Umoso said...

"I miss having a choice. I miss exercising my right to choose. But above all, I miss the feeling of being someone's only choice - I miss being chosen."




sOo luv it!

great!

'Varian Mazo The Ringleader' said...

In my case..
I'm considered an option kasi at first - then biglang hindi ako mapipili..
Masakit yun eh..
Pina-asa ka, umasa ka.. WALA.

Thanks for your thoughts..

\m/

'Varian Mazo The Ringleader' said...

Thanks!

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