Why is it that whenever you think everything is
going well, it always turns out the opposite?
I know, for a fact, that I am not that good as
a son, but is it really like this? Am I always stuck in a scenario wherein I am
always the one to blame? That I am the reason of every faulty thing there is in
my surroundings? That I am not capable of doing tasks which would benefit not
just me, but a lot of people in my surroundings? Or am I just misunderstood?
Should I question Him? Should I blame fate?
Should I question the fact that I am an only child, and the factors of being
one is that you are the center of all the blames in this world? Should I blame
myself for being such a self-centered, egoistic somebody who only wishes to
live life without guilt and self-pity?
You always say that I do not understand what
you’ve been thru and what you are facing now, but at one point, did you try to
understand why I can not understand you?
Have you considered the fact that I am not the
only one consuming everything here? That I am also a part of this circus, where
every one of us is supposed to be playing an important role in each other’s
not-so-important life? That considering me as the only one who is often seen to
be part of the play, I am not contributing, perhaps anything?
Am I just misunderstood here, or am I the one
who lacks the ability to sense the right things to be sensed?
When was the last time you thought I did
something right? That what I did favored everyone else’s lives?
When was the last time you considered noticing
my deeds? The deeds which, according to you, enables the advancement of this
day-to-day mayhem?
When was the last time you ever felt me as I
am? The cheers, heartaches, tears, triumphs; when was the last time you shared
your life with me on those moments?
Can’t you remember? Or you don’t want to
remember it at all?
What could I do to make you think that I am
right? That I am just playing my cards with utmost care, in favor of not only
for myself but all of us?
1 comments:
there is always two sides or more to the story, we can only see your side of the story..
and as our friendship tends us to sweet talk to you and ask you to be patient because the truth will find its way to the people you care..
true friends would criticize you for the wrong things..
whatever the truth is, i found diplomacy works most of the time.. i consider being patient, humble and less-prideful a key strength in myself.. sometimes admitting the wrong things to the ones you care, even when it was not your fault, gives you this feeling that you are the better person than the other..
and that's important, feeling the strength in one-self.. and that you are better than what people think.. and it is equally important to show to people that you are stronger and a better person by the qualities above..
and like i've said, truth shall eventually find its way to the heart of the good people around you..
peace >:-)
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